My dear Ninja

Tonight is the last night that I don't know you 100%. I know your heartbeat and I know your movements. I'm doing everything I can to provide you with the best kind of life possible while inside now and out soon. Tomorrow, I will know so much more about you. I find out if I am a mother to a daughter or to a son. I will allow myself to dream of a more gender specific future for you. Maybe you'll be a boy who loves dancing or a girl who loves sports. It matters not to me. I can't wait to see you bouncing around on the screen. It's been such a long time since I saw you and when I did you were not even formed. Just a little blinking heart. I can't wait to see you.
Most of all, I'm excited to hear that you're healthy. I have to believe that everything will be ok and you'll be healthy. Your daddy and I opted out of the Downs and CF screenings and while I've second guessed myself I have to remember that you're in God's hands. I can only do what I can do to keep you safe and healthy and the rest is up to him.
My dear ninja, I love you so much. I became the happiest person on the planet the moment I heard the news that you were on the way. I am honored to be your mommy and I can't wait to see you tomorrow.

Always,
Mommy